dilemma

dilemma.....
because 12th Oct.... there is two jalan raya which i want to join...
my family's and my old frens....

arrghhh~!!!! mcm mane ni seh!

aniwae, yesterday jalan raya was soo shiok.com.
like every year on raya, i looked forward to people coming to our house..and also jalan raya with the everlasting old frens........

uncles and aunties and couzins asked me where is my tunang...why didnt he join the raya outing... i simply said," its not the time yet'..

it is indeed not the time yet to expose him to other relatives and extended cousins houses for raya...
u see, I have this perangai which is i dun want to overexpose him to our family before we are married.
aniwae, as what cik leka said yesterday...its takmanis..
and cik umar said, next year is the time he can join us... hehe.

I guess, fairul should be familiar with my standing... secondary sckool time is worst.. i FORBID him to come to my house suke2...or just to mit my mum...i dun like!!
the worst thing is, even though he was my boyfren ...after 5 years, i am still malu malu taik kucing to regard him as my boyfren in front of my family..i refer to him as 'my Kawan"...haha.

things changed a bit when we were engaged last year...after 8 years, I finally expose him to my famili bit by bit....bringing him to relatives wedding...but limited la...

I will wait for Raya next year...(if panjang Umur)... I will bring you around baby.aniwhere and whoever house u wanna go aite....promise.