why?

why.... why must it happen now...?

we are so sad..cos we had plan it earlier on....
cos we dunno wat to do....
but we are trying to support each other...
so that we can stand up.....and make each other smile again..

hopefully something good is coming out....

another additional stress for me.....

haiss...

oh allah..... i hope im strong and u r testing me cos i know that more hurdles to come.....

alhamdulilah

alhamdulilah.... final decision made..confirmed..paid..

Now i am counting down not to the majlis day, but counting down to the getaway.its not far...not that expensive...its just gonna be memorable.;l

our chosen stay..

as days gone by

as days gone by....

as date is nearing...its getting hard to cope with the challenge...

im scared of making stupid decisions... so i chose to ignore it.


im busy with work..too busy with work...stayed back late in the office till late nite .......
and it just wont help when people dun understand....


k.. enuff said.

pieces of raya

splendid raya dis year..


love the malam raya.... mum went to sleep earli,not realli feeling well,... but for me, I am awake till 1-2 am cleaning the house and pasang cadar and all...all i love to do it by myself malam raya..not forgetting the forever routine mopping the floor midnight..haha....
I guess next year not gonna be the same huh... :(

im gonna miss everything i went thru the whole years of my life here in teban...tskkk~
haiss..k dun wanna talk about it here.. just letting fairul know my feelings is oredi sufficient *watery eyes*

nevertheless, it was fun...and exciting...very busy on first week of raya. alhamdulilah, many guests and relatives... "setiap tetamu yg datang itu membawa rezeki."

first raya weekend, couzins raya outing..haha.
no camera, so like beggar, i beg for pixxies from my cuzzie. thanks liza!
* tembam2 la my cuzzies... biase la eh.. baka.harap maklum*

end

its the end.............

thank you .

dont..just dont.

bad mood swings ahead...

so dont langgar the wrong cable..!

gud bye honeymoon plan A

Gudbye to honeymoon PLan A

and welcome honeymoon Plan B..

Gudbye to P. *sob*

Hello to B. *smile*

L? your my last option.

P....why are u still not stable with ur riots and protest....and make my bebeh unstable to go there..?
aniwae....diverting to B is also a good idea...

hehehehe...

TANTI SYIFANI...i need u to share with me whats great there.....hehehehehehehehehehe

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stop it la sey. *angry and agitated and irritated*

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stop it la sey.

dilemma

dilemma.....
because 12th Oct.... there is two jalan raya which i want to join...
my family's and my old frens....

arrghhh~!!!! mcm mane ni seh!

aniwae, yesterday jalan raya was soo shiok.com.
like every year on raya, i looked forward to people coming to our house..and also jalan raya with the everlasting old frens........

uncles and aunties and couzins asked me where is my tunang...why didnt he join the raya outing... i simply said," its not the time yet'..

it is indeed not the time yet to expose him to other relatives and extended cousins houses for raya...
u see, I have this perangai which is i dun want to overexpose him to our family before we are married.
aniwae, as what cik leka said yesterday...its takmanis..
and cik umar said, next year is the time he can join us... hehe.

I guess, fairul should be familiar with my standing... secondary sckool time is worst.. i FORBID him to come to my house suke2...or just to mit my mum...i dun like!!
the worst thing is, even though he was my boyfren ...after 5 years, i am still malu malu taik kucing to regard him as my boyfren in front of my family..i refer to him as 'my Kawan"...haha.

things changed a bit when we were engaged last year...after 8 years, I finally expose him to my famili bit by bit....bringing him to relatives wedding...but limited la...

I will wait for Raya next year...(if panjang Umur)... I will bring you around baby.aniwhere and whoever house u wanna go aite....promise.

huh...?

WATEVER La Eh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired

I. Am. So. Tired....